Apparently I am argumentative. Of course, I have always questioned the whys and the wherefores, especially if I don't understand or don't agree with what is being said or done. But nonetheless, I have been labeled argumentative. Of course, I am sleeping with my teacher, so that might earn me brownie points ;-)
Last night Sorin started teaching me to lead. And after 3 hours I am sure he was ready to throw me out the window (we were 8 stories up) and I was ready to jump out the window.
We were at the MIT practica, and the further in we got, the more stressed I became. Did you know that leaders leave a space and then jump back into it without warning?!?! Or that leaders will suddenly appear into a space that was empty when they were at least 5 feet away 2 seconds ago?!?!? Shocking! ;-)
And stressful. It was hard enough to try to lead with the chest, not walk like a duck, keep my core still, place my feet where the follower's had just been, listen to the music, move on the beat, and try to not get agitated when Sorin missed a lead or unconsciously back-lead me. Add on top of that add navigation (mine and others) and it is not surprising that at one point I was near tears.
And of course, I was resistant to moving too fast through things since I felt that we were not spending enough time of getting me to lead the walk on the beat. Granted, after the exercises Sorin insisted that we go through he claimed I was moving better than before. But I could not feel it. I just felt overwhelmed.
And after three hours where I thought perhaps I would be left behind in the gutter for my argumentative state, what did I learn?
Well, I can pretty much lead a walk almost on the beat and almost consistently.
I can almost lead the follower to a stop without jarring them.
I can lead weight changes.
I can sort of lead a walking turn to the left (follower's right).
I can lead a side step.
I know the dynamic of leading a rock step, I just can't really do it yet.
I know the dynamic of leading the follower to the cross, I just can't do it yet.
I will do what I am told, see what happens, and then argue. ;-)